About Jafira Dragon
Greetings, I am Jafira Dragon, (Jah-Fear-Ah) I am 34+ years of age, prior self proclaimed dragon pope and am somewhat of an adventurer, I live in the Phoenix area of Arizona where I am employed full time and spend what little free time I have offline studying and chilling in nature.
(My dragonkin beliefs can be found in the next section Below.
My general religious beliefs are fairly fluid, I believe in a sort of pantheist/animist mashup, or a little bit of everything. I tend to be a very deep thinker, drawing and evolving my personal beliefs from what works and makes sense from a variety of systems and different cultures. Paradoxically, I am also fairly secular when it comes to religion and can become a bit truculent when I encounter dogmatism or fundamentalism. I generally straddle a balance of internal spirituality and external secularism.
In the recent past I was a writer by hobby and tended to study general metaphysics during my spare time, I also studied alternative histories and similar subjects of the occult or paranormal. In past years I used to go on ghost hunts and practice energy work regularly, however lately I have become burnt out on many of my old interests and have moved on for the time being.
I AM ABSOLUTELY ADDICTED TO ART!! OMG!! SQUEE!! I LIVE FOR DRAGON ARTWORK!!!! But I myself cannot draw very well, nothing worth showing in public at least and I can tend to get extremely down or depressed about that personal weakness or failing.. Thus, I'll typically seek to compensate by searching for art during my free time and will often attempt to commission or request drawings from others who I respect or who's art style I enjoy. I am eternally thankful to those who draw gifts for me or choose to accept my commissions.
I am obviously an open lover of dragons and tend to obsess over them at times, I will be the first to admit that I have a dragon shrine in my room. At the same time however, I understand that there is more to life then admiration of mythical reptiles, I therefore strive to pull off a more or less average civilian life, working off line to keep my dragon interests to myself unless the subject comes up.
Lastly I must mention that I work an Evening shift and disappear from the internet during certain months, That said I am not always available online, however when I am online I try to be available for discussion, if you see me online, never hesitate to chat.
During my leisure time I tend to explore the Superstition Mountain wilderness a paranormal hot spot and beautiful mountain range. There is always something to explore in my area of the world and that keeps me busy. Or at least, it did before I became addicted to Skyrim...
Explanation of Korageth:
Kora Nivano: Reference Commissioned From: http://therealtwilightstar.deviantart.com/art/Storm-Watch-664410769
I perceive myself as having possibly existed in a prior lifetime as a feral black dragon, western in style and form. Simple with no absolutes, only perception based off subjective spiritual and emotional experiences. He could be, might not be, who knows, but its what I identify with. I call this dragon Korageth.
I perceive that I once existed or incarnated as a nomadic dragon. The name Korageth has its origin in that a humanoid wolf referred to me as such in a recurring dream from my youth, shortly before both I and the wolf were slain. That dream is an integral and emotional segment to my belief and exists as my perceived demise.
As a result of those dreams, I perceive that I, in that existence was slain one night, outside of a ruined building made of brick, this large building alongside some lesser ruins was located outside of a forested area and was surrounded by grassy fields, there seemed to be a lake a short distance away from these structures, it was in this area that I believe I, as Korageth may have lived and later died. After my perceive death as this dragon, I feel that I was reborn to Earth.
Around the age of eight or nine I believe that I began to regain some possible memories, through dreams, flashbacks, visions and meditation, as well as nothing more then an inner knowing that I was different somehow, I slowly began to remember this possible prior draconic existence.
In time I had awakened to, and accepted the fact that I was somehow very different from my peers at least on a spiritual or psychological level.
The Tycosian Dragons:
Years later in my mid teens these perceived flashbacks and memories would begin to occur in much greater detail and much more often.
This reached a climax in early 2001 with the appearance of two sentient dragon persona's or "head mates" Jafira, a young green dragon, and Veltra, an elderly yellow dragon. This combined with my dragon identity as Korageth, left me with three perceived dragon identities, whom I collectively referred to as the Tycosian Dragons.
These segments of my consciousness were perceived at the time as dragon spirit gaurdians (Jafira and Veltra) but my head mates were later understood to be simply separate aspects of my personality perceived as dragon personas.
These two head mates or guides were possibly based off memories of other dragons which might have possibly been encountered during the perceived existence as Korageth.
(That or I was just a confused teenager with imaginary friends, either way, my head mates were a blessing at the time.)
These false consciousness' allowed me to learn more of who I was, and when I had reached a greater level of understanding they rejoined my consciousness and faded away. Psychologically, the concept was similar to a mild form of Dissociative Identity Disorder I assume. Or to approach as a spiritualist, they were Tulpa's or self generated spirit guides.
Although my true spiritual identity is and has always been perceived as the dragon Korageth, I have chosen to use the name Jafira Dragon as my Internet identity as I personally consider the name to be more open and inviting.
Hatching of Rashau:
Rashau Seriana: Art Commissioned from: https://www.deviantart.com/flowerewolf/art/Clouds-and-Sunset-670454815
In late 2008, I entered into a loopy meditative trance and allowed myself to type information on to a word document while in a state of mind "separate from my natural state of being." I went into this introspective trance mindset to find some answers to questions concerning falsehoods in my perceived draconity, those falsehoods being that I had determined that my former headmates Jafira and Veltra were fake and that Kora's perceived memories at the time were mostly made up. In using this method I had hoped to gain incite on how to overcome and correct those problems.
The end result of this controversial trancestate was that I wrote a seven page essay letter to myself answering all of my questions just as I had requested. However, the document continued on to accuse me of concealing a possible secondary incarnation due to a gender bias and social fears.
The document that I had written in trance accused me of denying evidence of a secondary incarnation/awakening and petitioned that I reflect and introspect upon evidence from my childhood and teen years which could provide credence to the claim.
This event directly lead to a year of personal turmoil, my head mates ceased to exist, and Korageth's memories and perceived life were abruptly reexamined and reinterpreted with more perceived spiritual accuracy, in as such, I had to reawaken to him all over again as well as consider the possible evidence for this speculative alternate female dragon existence.
Throughout the year of 2008 Korageth remained and remains to this day my dominant spiritual identity and prior perceived incarnation, but that year also allowed me to accept the possibility of having incarnated in an alternate or earlier separate existence as Rashau. However, unlike Korageth who is just too strong to deny, My sense of identity as Rashau or my evidence for her tends to fluctuate. She undeniably exists as a part of me, but she was unconfirmed spiritually. I acknowledged her as an aspect of myself, but I initially treated her as just a character or a scalesona. She was often considered a spiritual question mark or a "maybe" as far as my draconity goes.
Between 2008-2010 Rashau and Korageth both had fictional "biographical" stories written describing their existence's and lives. However without any proof and considering my questionable state of mind in that period, those life stories remain a matter of faith, both literary works should be considered creations of fiction or fantasy just like any other story with dragons.
(Rashau: 2015-2016 Addendum) At this point and with the boundless inspirational support of my closest friend Atmora I have come to accept my self perception as Rashau as a more natural and welcomed side aspect of my dragon identity and spirituality.
Thanks to Atmora's caring support I am gradually becoming more open or publicly accepting of her as an aspect of myself. Internally Rashau has become less of a question mark / scalesona and is now gradually becoming acknowledged alongside Kora's aspect as an emotional self perceived flip side to the coin of my internal being. Kora and Rashau are both memories of two lost lives which are bound in balance as one within my traveling soul. I have come to embrace my sexual and spiritual duality, on the days in which I feel more like Rashau internally I'll tend to wear her avatar, on the days I feel balanced, I'll wear a hybrid avatar or a split representation and lastly when I feel masculine I'll retain my public identity as Korageth.
Rashau is a very attractive dragon and if nothing else, I guess at least artistically she provides a bright and playful contrast to my identity as Korageth. Spiritually I still remain slightly agnostic about her at times, but I am leaning increasingly towards a spiritual interpretation, there is just some strange powerful emotional connection that I have with/as her that I don't quite understand yet. But, the senses I feel on the days in which I wake "as her" are sometimes just too strong to outright deny.
I personally consider both spirit and gender to be fluid and shifting so I don't really mind having her around as a part of me anymore, I'm no longer insecure of having her seen as part of my public identity. I have even come to love embracing the duality that I can wake some days feeling in tune as her and others more as Kora, I tend to feel that her and Korageth make a beautiful balance, two halves to the whole of my spirit and being, light and day, reclusive and open, I can see many aspects of my present self in both of them and it makes me proud to finally accept her as part of the whole of who I am.
To reiterate, Based on personal subjective and emotional criteria I identify as possibly having once been a feral black dragon. In my late teens I had two dragon "headmates" name Jafira and Veltra (DM5 DID) their personalities accompanied me for many years through high school and early portions of my college education, I associated them as side effects of my spirituality but always self identified internally as Kora. in 2008 Jafira and Veltra sort of "fused" into Kora, by which I mean my own personality. Sometimes when I miss them I may try once or twice a year to attempt to bring them back, but I have never been able to sustain them again for more then a couple hours or to fully bring them back as head mates. As a note: Ni ether Kora nor Rashau are headmates. Both are just "me", or how I see or sense myself inside.
Based off subjective experience I learned in my mid 20's that I was possibly a green dragoness in a separate even earlier life.(?) Some days I will wake up feeling more in tune with one or the other emotionally. But both internal identities are just me, or how my emotions or spirit feels at a given time. As a result of my spiritual, emotional, psychological self perceptions and explorations I seem to have become somewhat genderflux between the two possible self identities. Some days I may feel 50/50 in tune with, or natural as either identity. (see Korashau) some weeks I may internally feel that I am 75% or 100% Rashau, or, vice versa I might feel entirely in tune solely as Kora for a long duration.
My internal, spiritual self identity and digital self portrayal online changes often and I have so far been unable to fully determine the triggers which cause my apparent gender fluidity, if any. My perceived dragon beliefs are very personal to me, they continue to evolve and obviously took many years to form to this point. The above experiences heavily influenced the creation of this site as one of my primary goals has always been to help others working through similar experiences so that they may know, like myself, that they are not alone.
The Finality of Who Jafira is:
So yeah, your still asking, who am I really?
I am someone who loves fantasy, mystery, life and the paranormal, someone who explores the great wilderness and strives to be different from everyone else, defies society as it is, flaunts his uniqueness in public, believes in energy and magic, while traveling everywhere to the sound of amazing new music. One who helps good friends and strangers to the detriment of himself, cares not for the perceptions of others, and lives each day as if it were his last.
Someone from another world and another life, an alien mind, a dragon lost in a world of man, desperately trying to fit in while not losing himself, someone who connects with other dragons of his past for guidance, Jafira for his youth and playfulness, Veltra for his wisdom, and intellect, as well as his past perception Korageth for his strength pride and will! I am someone who isn't afraid to play with the forces of the unknown, or seek his own path in life.
Someone who will climb the highest peak and gaze down in awe at Gods great creations, one who seeks to enjoy the peace of nature, and explore unknown areas in search of new adventures that others believe cannot possibly exist, one who spends his free times studying lost knowledge in the tops of forest trees in a hidden oasis in the desert, far from civilization, free to be with creation and the beauty around him.
Someone who has lived his life with much pain and suffering and has learned to always persevere for the greater reward, someone who has seen his past demolished and heartbroken can still look to the future bright eyed with the knowledge that his past was good, someone who has been hurt and alone and though weary to give his heart, can truly appreciate the warmth and undeserved love that a relationship can give.
A writer who writes tales of the world he believed to be his home, the creatures he wishes he could meet again, his characters sacrificing their lives always for the benefit of the greater good, an artist at heart who though lacking of his own skill can see the deep heart, individual skill and effort in the artwork of others, cherishing the work placed in each stroke. A poet in the darker depths of his mind, and one given to long speeches to no one but the spirits and nature around him.
Someone who had cloaked himself in darkness because no one showed him the light, a simple man, who wants nothing more then a simple life, a peaceful life to follow his dreams, to fulfill his ambitions, to rest, to sleep, to love, to be loved, and to sit upon the mountains with his friends and love ones, watching the blazing sunset in the distance, and learning to rest happily with those he can love and trust. Nothing more.
That is who I am...
That about covers my bio, it was long and boring, but thorough, I am gladly open to discussions or questions, and happy to meet new people, preferably the friendly kind.
Thank you for reading, I feel that it is important that, if I am to go through the trouble to create these resources and community, that my visitors should know at least a little about the person behind the scenes. I will do my best to serve my guests in any way that I can and work hard to provide the best for dragon lovers across the globe.
~May the spirit of the dragon live on in all who believe.
This is my dragon code, generated at Dragon Realms, it shows information concerning my dragon aspects.
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HYBRID SPIRIT (POEM TRIBUTE TO JAFIRA'S SPIRIT):
I am Korashau, I am the grace, whose mane flows in the cosmic winds, my black scales glisten in the light of the stars, green tinted scales cross my form as plains of nature cut through the night, my eyes, blue as the sky, green as the glade, my wings the blanket of the heavens, my fur, my mane, the tuft of my tail, soft strands of crimson silk. The world in my claw, the heavens my realm, I am spirit, I am all things, I am male, I am female, I am alive, I am dead, I am all knowing, I know nothing, I am love, I am hate, I am legend, I am fact, I am dragon, I am man.
I am the circle of life, elliptical eternity, the beauty of all things, the experience of life, the feral beast who knows love. I am the winged serpent who lives as man, balanced in nature and teacher of the inner light, for we all are one, an encompassing spirit lost but found, living yet dead, we seek the path to understand. Life is to live, life is to love, all else is lesson.